Oh how my thoughts have changed...

When I was watching the Bachelorette, I really didn't like Jason. I did feel a little bad for him when he got ditched by Deanna...but I wasn't surprised, 'cause we all knew that she would go with Jesse...someone whom it would never work out with. Then they picked Jason to be the bachelor...yawn...but I decided to watch to see the drama unfold. Surprisingly...Jason has grown on me a bit...try not to be shocked. Last night's episode really pushed me over. I felt the interaction between he and his son, Ty, seemed a little "showy" whenever they were on camera...however, last night, when he met up with Ty after not seeing him for a week, he totally got choked up...and it was completely genuine...! Then at the rose ceremony, he almost lost it again when he didn't give Stephanie (single mom) a rose...I really think this whole process is tearing him up...even Chris knew it was a hard night and patted him and asked him if he was okay...I think Jason is too kind for this show.

Okay...now on to my other thoughts...none of these girls are right for him...and I REALLY like Melissa and Jillian. Here is my problem...every year on the Bachelor we laugh at the unrealisticness of the show...the dates....the lifestyle. We laugh that when the show is over and real life is re-entered all "love" will diminish. And we have proof of this as Trista and Ryan are the only ones who lasted out of the dozen of bachelors and bachelorettes. So add to the unrealisticness of the show, a child...let's send the girls on over the top romantic dates with a guy, who back home is a single dad and will NEVER be able to do such things again. Good example of this...Melissa's date that turned into a night in with Jason, drinking wine and nothing else. Real life right????!!!! I don't think that any of these girls have any clue as to what life with Jason will be like. There will be no honeymoon stage...there will be no quiet nights at home as a new couple...it will be work, school, caring for a child....and maybe a few quiet moments together...really....I don't want that life for any of them. I want them (okay Melissa and Jillian) to find guys who are single and with out children...guys who they can walk all the fun "firsts" of life with...As for Molly and Naomi...I don't want Jason to end up with them either. I was Jason to find a girl, like Stephanie...someone who maybe has a child...who is older...who truly understands what it means to be selfless. They all say that they are ready to be mom's...I don't believe they are ready to be a step-mom to a 5 year-old. They all say they understand what it will be like...LIARS...they don't understand...Oh...the whole thing is just making me frustrated.

This season has brought very little drama...they actually found great girls (a few crazies who are gone)...unlike past seasons where there were bitches and whores...I guess they wanted to do better since a child was involved. It has been nice to not have the drama...but because there has been little drama...these girls are actually pretty good friends...and I am concerned about the fact that they seem to be closer to one another then to Jason...

The girls:

Jillian: I think that Jason has some pretty strong feelings for Jillian...I think that Jason is doing a good job of asking the right questions of her...however...I don't think Jillian is in the same place. When answering questions...she says a lot about coming on the show for the experience, the girls, travel....you would think that if you are trying to convince a guy to choose you, your answers would go something like, "I am falling for you and seem not myself because I am having a hard with you going out with other girls"...or "I just can't believe I feel this way about you after such a short time and it is kinda freak'n me out"....you know...answers so many other girls have said...I really like Jillian, I think she is pretty, down to earth, kind, etc...I just don't know if she is in that place with Jason...

Melissa: I think Melissa has an ideal idea in her head as to what life will be like with Jason...I don't believe this is very realistic and I wish a didn't life for her. I don think that she is falling for Jason...or the idea of it all. I don't want her to be sad if she doesn't get chosen...but I don't want him to choose her...

Naomi: Young...has no idea what this life would be like...she'll go home soon!

Molly: Molly, molly, molly...what? I can't even figure this girls out...I don't feel like I have good grasp of what she is about...? Thoughts????

I obviously have a lot to say about this weeks episode...I never thought I could get so deep about a show like this...guess it just seems more real when a kid is involved...instead of 2 single people being silly with a relationship.

Next weeks home town dates....looks like it will be an interesting week. One thought...Naomi's mom and family...all I could think of was the Kardashian clan...